There was a time that I woke up with anticipation of my morning devotion. I enjoyed this quiet time, alone, reading my bible and praying. It became part and parcel of my morning routine throughout my college years, and my years in the workplace. I’m the kind of person that requires quiet, alone time, with some form of caffeinated beverage, at least thirty minutes before I do anything useful. So, there’s really no reason why I can’t spend these initial moments of each day with the Lord…
Once I became a foster parent, I recognized that my alone time had to revolve around a tiny other being. That was the start of some inconsistency in my morning devotion. Then, after going through some very difficult trials (as a foster parent), let’s just say that my morning devotion became obsolete. Since then, it’s been an ongoing struggle. Nevertheless, I have been praying for something…anything to resurrect the anticipation, I once had.
Morning Devotion ~ My Struggle
After my greatest heartache (which occurred a little over two years ago), I suppose I was having trouble understanding why God did not give me what I wanted. So, every time I tried to devote my time to Him, my prayers would take a detour.
They would go something like this…
“Lord, thank you for today. Thank you for your forgiveness, love, and faithfulness… (yaddy yadda). But, since we’re on the subject, WHY did you allow for me to go through so much pain, back then? I’m sorry, but I’m having a hard time getting this out of my thoughts. It’s not as easy for me to move past this, as You can once a sin is forgiven. Ugghhh. I’m sorry. Maybe, I’ll come back tomorrow, and try this again.”
Honestly, the more I tried getting back into a morning devotion, the more I felt discouraged. I just couldn’t concentrate on what God was doing or speaking to me, in the moment. My mind kept going BACK to the past. It was as if I kept hitting a road block. This went on for months and months.
And, then are those occasional bouts of depression and anxiety. Sometimes, I fall mercy to these debilitating symptoms. My sleep is interrupted. I feel tired, most of the day. I also lack motivation to do anything. I’m not making excuses for skipping out on my morning devotions, because this is not something that requires much from us, at all! I am validating that depression and anxiety can make things harder.
To add insult to injury, I also have attention deficit issues. I don’t think I’m alone in admitting that cell phones and social media have infiltrated our attention span to just about everything, lately!
Ok, so you get the picture. I have been really struggling with morning devotions! Am I alone here?
A Blessing in Disguise
A few weeks ago, I went through a two week window of depression. I go through this regularly. It’s part of the joys of having Endometriosis and PMDD. Anyway, after a few days of feeling completely USELESS, I became restless. I wanted to WANT to do something. ANYTHING.
When I am depressed, there are only a few things that come easily…Taking care of Chase. (Thank God for MOTHERLY instincts and abilities.) Taking care of my health. (I listen to my doctor!) And….doing a puzzle.
I know. It may sound strange to some. But, I’ve always loved puzzles. Even though I rarely made time for them.
During this last episode of depression, I set up a puzzle in my dining room. Each day, I would sit in there before sunset. This room has a beautiful, majestic glow during a sunny afternoon. It really did wonders for me!
Eventually, I added PRAISE Music to my 15-30 minute puzzle time. I turned on my Pandora (the Danny Gokey station). And, let me tell you… I enjoyed this so much! I even started to feel connected again, to the Lord!
Could I be on to something??
Morning Devotion ~ My Solution
A few years ago, I was introduced to Les Feldick. He is (in my humble opinion) one of the best Bible Teachers of all time! He started out with a bible study in his home, back in the 70s. But after it grew exponentially, he was offered a television series. He recorded his bible teachings (straight from Genesis through Revelation), over the course of twenty years. (Over thirty years total, of bible teaching experience.) For anyone who really wants to understand the bible and how it really does fit perfectly together, Les Feldick’s teachings are the way to go.
Recently, I had the idea of spending my morning devotion with Les Feldick. As a way to help motivate me, I decided to listen to his sermons while doing a PUZZLE! Guess what? I am now doing my morning devotion, again. I realize this may sound silly or even ineffective, to some. But, I happen to feel that it’s a step in the right direction. Not to mention, there’s something about putting a puzzle together that reminds me of how God is working in our lives. Piece by piece, He is rebuilding us. And, making us whole.
I think that’s kind of cool.
Morning Devotion and A Puzzle
The puzzle keeps me from getting sidetracked with my phone, or social media. (Because my hands are doing my puzzle!) I also feel that it is easy to concentrate on a recorded sermon, because doing a puzzle doesn’t require listening skills.
So, now, every morning, I wake up with coffee. A puzzle. And, my morning devotion. (Via Les Feldick.) I spend a minimum of 15 minutes before starting my day. So far, I’ve completed four puzzles, and I’m still into my morning devotion routine!
Are you having trouble devoting your time to the Lord? Do you have a silent hobby that does not require listening? (Such as sewing or knitting. Or scrapbooking…etc.) I think this may help get you back on track. Will you give it a try?
I’d love to hear your ideas or testimonies on how a morning devotion is happening (or not happening) in your life. Share in the comment section, below!
PS Here are the puzzles I have completed so far, and a few that I’m doing next! Ravensburger are my favorite. They are the best quality and I like how the pieces are shaped in the standard way. (If you do puzzles, you know what I mean!)